Almost Over
One minute I’m strolling through castles, the next I am canoeing down rivers, and still after that I am picnicking with students. My life is full to overflowing these days, with more adventures than some people know in a lifetime, and all of the love my heart can hold.
My fellow teachers and I recently attended our last official meeting together, and it was an intense time for me. After taking communion together, praying, and singing worship songs, I finally was able to cry. It was one of those sobs that came from deep within, like my spirit just burst open and whatever was inside desperately made its way out. Forgive me for the drama. I feel things more intently than the average person. I cried because of THEM, those precious hearts that I love so much, those faces I have already begun saying goodbye to, those smiles I do not know when I shall see again. I cried because I will no longer be a part of their lives, and that saddens me more than I can say.
But life is always moving, my friends, and the things that sadden us today don’t have to tomorrow. As I sat with my favorite class during the picnic that they made for me, I started to get emotional. But I said out loud to them, “No. No sadness today. Today I am just going to enjoy you.” And I did.
This past weekend I went canoeing with my friends in Cesky Krumlov, and when I tell you that this is the most romantic town I’ve ever seen, you will know I am not exaggerating. It was my first-ever time canoeing, and I was pretty proud of myself. I found that I could endure more physically than I thought I could.
I leave Prague two weeks from this Friday. It’s so strange. I used to try to imagine what I would feel like at this time- a year’s worth of hard work just about done, and the view of home in sight. I thought I’d be so impatient for it to be over… but I was wrong. There’s something about this place. When you come here and stay a while, it just becomes a part of you, and leaving is not something you are looking forward to; it’s just something you accept.
My fellow teachers and I recently attended our last official meeting together, and it was an intense time for me. After taking communion together, praying, and singing worship songs, I finally was able to cry. It was one of those sobs that came from deep within, like my spirit just burst open and whatever was inside desperately made its way out. Forgive me for the drama. I feel things more intently than the average person. I cried because of THEM, those precious hearts that I love so much, those faces I have already begun saying goodbye to, those smiles I do not know when I shall see again. I cried because I will no longer be a part of their lives, and that saddens me more than I can say.
But life is always moving, my friends, and the things that sadden us today don’t have to tomorrow. As I sat with my favorite class during the picnic that they made for me, I started to get emotional. But I said out loud to them, “No. No sadness today. Today I am just going to enjoy you.” And I did.
This past weekend I went canoeing with my friends in Cesky Krumlov, and when I tell you that this is the most romantic town I’ve ever seen, you will know I am not exaggerating. It was my first-ever time canoeing, and I was pretty proud of myself. I found that I could endure more physically than I thought I could.
I leave Prague two weeks from this Friday. It’s so strange. I used to try to imagine what I would feel like at this time- a year’s worth of hard work just about done, and the view of home in sight. I thought I’d be so impatient for it to be over… but I was wrong. There’s something about this place. When you come here and stay a while, it just becomes a part of you, and leaving is not something you are looking forward to; it’s just something you accept.
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